Arne Vainio: I blamed myself for my father's death by suicide for over 50 years

Suicide is a scary subject and it’s a touchy subject. Almost everyone has been touched by suicide and those left behind most often suffer in silence. It’s difficult for people to bring up the names to family and friends for fear of reopening wounds too deep to easily close again and those names remain unspoken. The hurt runs deep in the wake of such a confusing and devastating event and there is a stigma surrounding suicide that keeps people from talking about it.

My father committed suicide when I was four years old and I blamed myself for over fifty years. Even as a little kid, I felt I was a burden to him and I could see the conflict in the families around me and I knew that was too much for him to bear. I used to dread certain people, kids my age and adults alike who would say things about my father’s suicide because they knew it would hurt me and I knew it was sport for them.

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